Over the past few years, I’ve been wrestling with the relationship between Intuition and Anxiety. Growing up a sense of self was looked down upon and putting yourself last was a sign of strength. So, as you may imagine, that caused some inner trouble later on in life leading to self-doubt and difficulty in trusting myself. I’ve grown so much in the last few years. I’ve prioritized myself and my health in every sense of the word. Mental, physical, emotional and relational health. Self-awareness and “trusting my gut” has become extremely important to me.
However, anxiety is also a part of me. I’ve struggled with panic attacks since I was eight years old and twenty years later managing my anxiety can feel like a full-time job. When making decisions I pride myself on being able to turn inward - searching out how I feel and what feels “right” for me. But, as many of you have experienced, with anxiety, this can be difficult.
“Am I just scared?”
“Is this decision “wrong”?”
“Is this just discomfort?”
“What if I backtrack?”
These are some of the questions that whirl around in my brain when I’m feeling conflicted over a decision. For me it comes from the “need” to be perfect and not wanting to fail.
I love this quote by Deepak Chopra. I’ve been coming back to this when I’m obsessing or ruminating over what decision is “right”.
I recently took this topic to Instagram and asked for your thoughts. How do you determine when a feeling is your intuition (i.e a “gut feeling”) or anxiety? You feel that pit in your stomach - is it a bad gut feeling?…or is it anxiety manifesting physically due to not having control over the situation? There were some really insightful perspectives and some of you expressed that you’re still figuring this out too. At the end of the day, I think there’s no black and white answer. The answer to this question may look different for each person.
I keep coming back to “We are human beings, not human doings”. I am more than enough, regardless of my decisions, accomplishments or achievements. And so are you.
See more on my Instagram Higlihts “Gut vs Anxiety”